Beebee

I haven’t blogged in awhile, so I figured I had better make myself do it. Yes, lots of reluctance to write about me right now. I gained 2 lbs at WW last night. No big suprise there. I have had a roller coaster week this week, and I’m never very good at controlling the food part of my life if I feel out of control in other areas. My boss gave me $1 raise with the understanding that I find daycare right away for my son. I was expecting to have until he started crawling to make other arrangements. My boss is retiring though, and he said that this is something that needs to be taken care of now. I don’t want to put my son in daycare. I feel the most important thing right now is that I be with him during his babyhood. He is a happy baby, but if he has to go to daycare, he will be miserable. I just don’t think I could do it to him (or me for that matter). So, I have a very limited time to figure out what I’m going to do. I cannot just give up the income without having a better plan of action than that. I have to be able to cushion the budget in some way before giving up that money. I don’t work for fun, believe it or not!!

So it is stressing me out not knowing what I’m going to do. I love my job and I love that I have been able to have my baby at work with me. I sort of feel like I owe my boss for doing it for me. I owe my baby and family first though. He is retiring, so this is a really crappy time to have to replace me. The $1 raise really indicates to me that he doesn’t want to lose me. I’m awefully overpaid now for a secretary!

I need to find some way to make money without sacrificing my time with my son though. I know every mother has probably said the same thing. I hate it that I have to choose. It is such a short time that my son will be a baby though.

Sooooo, I have been eating everything in sight. I admit it. I probably deserve to gain way more than 2lbs in a week (thank God for the burned calories breastfeeding!!). We are talking about buying the local pet store as an option. The economy is so shaky right now though, I’m not sure how that will pan out. I have no idea how to even start looking into it!! We’ll see. I’ll keep you all posted. Might soon be the source for great pets and pet needs!!

I’m trying to decompress my stress. My mom (and weight loss companion) is going to be out of town for the next couple of weeks. I’m trying to avoid blowing off all effort to lose weight while she is gone! My sis from Nebraska said she will meet my challenge to lose 10 lbs by Oct 28th. Figure that will give me something to work towards! Whoever wins (most weight lost) gets to buy dinner at Applebees over Thanksgiving weekend! Sooo, I will be working my buns off to lose as much as possible. I got to win.. ya know??

Thanks for putting up with my ramble today. I just needed to own up in writing, so I can move on and lose weight!!