Life’s Ups and Downs
Well, I’m back. I haven’t actually been missing, but I’ve been pretty quiet lately. I come here for many reasons, which I’m sure I’m not the only one. This is a familiar and safe place to vent both life and weight loss issues. I’ve had my fair share of both lately. My hubby left for a month, and now we are trying to work things out. I know a lot of women here have been through similar things, so I don’t need to tell you how emotional this has all made me. I’m glad we are trying to work things out, but I’m really scared too. Now, for an emotional eater, this is hell on wheels. I sling shot back and forth between losing 6 lbs in a week to gaining 4 lbs a couple weeks later. I’ve been in WW for the past 3 months, and I’ve already lost 10% of my weight which is the first goal. That was exciting, but I haven’t developed the habits I need to actually be successful in my weight loss goals. I have been off track for the past month and a half. I’m now trying to make it a more structured priority because this just isn’t working for me. I can’t wait for things to settle down to lose weight cuz I’m just afraid that isn’t going to happen for a really really long time. I’ve started journaling my thoughts, feelings, and progress in maintaining control. I think it is going to help in the long run. Yesterday was my WW weigh-in, and I was sure that I was going to gain huge. I haven’t been doing well this week (emotionally eating that is) w/ hubby around. I ended up staying the same on weight, but that is still one pound up from my 10% loss, so that is frustrating. I’m hoping to get it off this week though. My mom and I are trying to lose together. We set 2 lbs as our goal this week. Not much, but enough that I have to actually try if I’m going to do it. Thank goodness for breastfeeding or I would probably be way up on weight right now. 
Got to love da baby!!
Oh, I also realized that I officially have LESS than 100 lbs to lose now!! That was exciting (and depressing) all at once! MY goal weight is 130 lbs which means I have ONLY 98 lbs to go!! Woohooo!! Yes, I know that is a whole lotta weight, but got to look on the bright side!
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Yes, always look on the bright side of things! It’s the only way to go. I don’t know if I could’ve lost as much as I have so far if I was always concentrating on the large amount I need to lose over all (188 lbs total). Looking on the bright side and taking things each day as they come. It’s good to see you back.
Beebee, I know you don’t know me but I do think about you because I was in your shoes a few years ago.
The road you are on with your husband will be a long one. I commend you for reconciling and keeping it together for your family. Your husband has to pull his weight and show you that you can trust again. What was done is over. He has to make you number one and continually assure you he is there for you. Honestly, he needs to earn it.
I can tell you I didn’t eat for a long time after I learn about my ex’s infidelity. In fact, I lost 8 lbs in 1 week. But when I would eat, it was binge after binge after binge. The worst part was becoming BULMIC. To gain control, I would purge because it felt good. I was able to escape from my hell for a few minutes. He actually tried to reconcile with me but was living with her and lying to not just me but her too. I tried for a year; waited to see if we could make it work; but at the end of the day, I decided I was worth more than that. The last time I heard about him, I heard he had a baby girl with the wench.
Please stay strong, because you are so strong -always remember, YOU matter most. Let the sun shine on you. Because if your sun don’t shine, you can’t be there for your children and others.
Congrats on the wieght loss and I am happy for you and hubby! I will keep praying!
Good luck with that last lb. Congrats on the less than 100 lbs to go. That has to be a great feeling. Proud of you.
Always think about the positive. I know things can be very hard and stressful, but always try and pull out some kind of positive in your life it will help you focus and will make you feel better. Proud of you. Keep it up and don’t give up your amazing
Beebers! Absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE your outlook and your attitude today. I was pleased to read that you and husband are trying to work things out.
Losing 10% of weight is AWSOME! It’s good to see you around and lemme know if there’s anything I can do for you, K? It’s good to let out and talk about emotions instead of letting things well up inside. I’m here if you need me sweetie.
Really happy that you have started journaling. Be sure to get some map colors or colored pens and highlighters. Don’t forget to draw little smiley faces (or frowny faces), squiggles and just “play” with your journal. It makes going back to read it so much more fun and interesting. Make it a journal of memories AND thoughts, good AND bad…
How’s baby? Growing like a weed I bet. *big grin*
Hugggggggggggggggggggggs,
Shan