Beebee

Well, I turn 34 tomorrow. I don’t think I like middle of the week birthdays. Today is the last day of 33 which is ok by me I suppose. The years keep creeping by and making me an old lady! I was so much younger the last time I was pregnant on a birthday! I guess things keep changing all the time! I wish I could reflect right now on my last birthday and say that I’ve come so far in one year. But I can’t. Weight wise, I’m almost the same as last birthday. A few pounds better, but nothing outstanding.

I suppose that should depress me. It doesn’t. I look at my life and realize that I have everything I could ever want. I have beautiful children and a wonderful hubby. Baby on the way and feeling pretty good. Sometimes we don’t always know (or plan) what life is going to throw our way.

I do know that by my NEXT birthday.. I will be a much slimmer and fitter person though!!

Well, I had my first doctor’s appt on Wednesday. It was supposed to be on Friday, but I got a call that the doc had a family emergency and would be out of office for 3 weeks. Asked if I could come in immediately to get my appt done. I said sure and left my job and spent the afternoon in the doc office. I wouldn’t haven minded this except the doc was already gone, so what was the point in me rescheduling to see the NURSE? Doctor appt went fine though. Had my blood and urine work done. The nurse was pissy with me because I said I didn’t want to have a sonogram done “just because”. I told her that I didn’t agree with unnecessary testing and such on the baby for routine purposes. If the doctor felt there was an actual concern and medical need to have it done, then I would reconsider. She couldn’t really argue, but she tried in vain to convince me to “just go along with it.”

I’m kind of a “naturalist” where pregnancy is concerned. I think that doctors tend to want to be doers, and developing babies are better left to their time with very little interference. I don’t think you can go wrong by letting nature do her thing. No one ever comes back a decade later and says there are evil side effects to eating right, avoiding bad manmade things, rest, and exercise. I am sure that “most” things they now do to unborn babies are safe, but for me, I don’t want to take the chance they are wrong. Besides that, most of the testing things they do now is to weed out the “bad babies”. By this I mean testing for genetic or growth problems. I would never have an abortion, so if my baby is down sydrome (or anything else), I probably don’t need the stress of knowing it this early. She was able to find the heartbeat on the doppler, and it sounded good. I gained 3 lbs since my last appt (pre-prego). It wouldn’t have been that high except I had no warning I was going to have to step on the scale, and I had just eaten a rather large lunch!! :O That is an evil thing to do to a prego woman!

We are having family drama concerning my step-kids. I’m hoping it will all settle down soon. I would love to tell you all more, but out of respect for my hubby, I am trying to learn to keep my mouth shut occassionally and have some faith. Just keep us in mind and for those of you who pray, I wouldn’t mind a few in regards to making the best choices in the near future.

Well, I took yesterday off completely from the gym. My ankle was still hurting from my spill the other day, and I couldn’t swim w/ my knee skinned. My ankle is better today, so I’ll be going to the gym after work tonight. I still didn’t go to the pool though. I don’t want to end up getting an infection in my knee. I figure it will be healed up by the weekend or so. Until then, I’ll just be going to the gym.

My eating has still been mostly on track. It isn’t perfect, but considering the circumstances, I’m not going to complain too much. My will of iron gets overruled sometimes by raging hormones. I still win most of the battles though. My mood swings concerning food have settled down. The idea of a salad no longer makes me cringe. I do need to go get some shopping done tonight. The cupboards are bare!!

I have a doc appt on Friday. Hopefully this one doesn’t get cancelled too! He was sick last week and I got rescheduled. My total weight gain to date since conception is 2 lbs still. I’m at 12 weeks tomorrow. Not too shabby I suppose. It is much better than it would be if I wasn’t actively trying to keep it maintained. I feel like I’m big as a whale already! Belly is getting rounder and I feel clumsy already.

I’m sure everyone is sick to death of me whining that I just can’t seem to get my act together regarding exercise. No one is more sick of it than me!! I took my biggest excuse to myself, and just decided to FIX it. It isn’t waking up in the morning, I’m usually awake by 5am regardless of schedule or day of the week. I just can’t seem to sleep very late anymore. My number 1 excuse is it is too damn cold to go outside that early in the morning . Especially swimming cuz I don’t like to come home damp and frozen. It just kills me. So I went to the store and got a a gym bag and shower supplies. I know this sounds like I’m avoiding the issue that I’m just not determined enough to make it to the gym.

So Friday, I decided to end the week on a better note than the rest had been going. I went to the gym! Now, before you get too too excited, I went and walked 1 mile on the treadmill. I was going to do fitness equip too, but hubby wanted to go on Saturday to workout. I didn’t want to do it two days in a row with the weights. It was a start though!

Saturday, I woke hubby up and asked him if he was going to get up and go with me to the gym. His answer, was I going to be angry if he declined? I told him either way I was going to go, but I needed to know in advance cuz I wanted to make it to open swim if he wasn’t going to go. He said he wasn’t. I said fine, and got ready to go swimming. I went in sweat pants over my swimsuit, and didn’t get cold at all!! I showered and dressed afterwards and felt like a million bucks. I swam 5 laps. Not a lot for most, but it is a strong start for me!!

I took Sunday off, and this morning went to swim again at 5:30am. Felt great and increased by 1/2 lap! My son and I are going to the fitness center after work. I don’t know if I will just walk or if I will go ahead and do strength training too. Either way, I’m going to get ‘er done!

My eating has been excellent. Not much junk and lots of healthy baby-making food! I came to a realization. My body is not weak just because it is pregnant. If anything, it is stronger and capable. Yes, there are precautions for pregnancy which I will never take lightly, but I’m going to revel in all that my body is capable of and treat it the best I can!

On a BAD note (and an embarrassing one!) I did something really stupid at lunch break. I wasn’t paying attention and stepped on a rock funny. Twisted my ankle and fell flat down on my hands and knees. I haven’t noticed any bad side effects past my ankle hurting and my pride being all bruised. I wanted to make note of it here though.. just in case!

I hope everyone is having the most excellent day! I am planning on ending mine well. Sounds like hubby might be off work and spending the evening with us tonight! I’m so excited!