Beebee

Ok, I’m preggers and having to constantly be doing what is “best” for the baby for the next.. oh, 7.5 months (+18 yrs). I have to sleep more, eat healthy, exercise, take my vitamins, ache all over graciously because who doesn’t ache when pregnant? Oh, and horrible mood swings and food cravings. That is just the tip of the iceberg! I have been trying to exercise without overdoing it. It is a fine line. I am starting aquafit class this evening and I think hubby should go with me and do it too to show his support of OUR child. He disagrees. He said that he absolutely is NOT doing water arobics. He is going to be off work and available so therefore I think he should–for me AND baby. Since he told me NO, I thought I would put it to vote. I don’t understand that “no” word! I can’t believe he told me no!! I never hear that word, so I don’t think it is a real answer!! Soooooo, popular vote. Should hubby have to go do girlie water arobics with me or not??

Great combo huh?? I did pretty good through out the day yesterday, and then hubby ordered pizza late in the evening!! I SAID I didn’t want any. I guess I lied. I did good until it showed up and smelled so good. Made my tummy rumble and it was over without a fight. I had two slices. Grrrrr! Hub took the last of it to work with him today, so at least I don’t have to deal with it anymore. Frustrates me though because I was going to finish on schedule if I could have just said no. I should have walked out the door and gone for a walk. Or something. Anything besides eating that stuff!!

I did get up this morning and go to the Y with my son. Did just a couple of arm exercises while we were waiting for the treadmills to open up. Walked a mile at a good click. We were a little short on time, so we didn’t get back to lifting. Might try to see what I can get done this evening. I am already signed up for an Aquafit class at 6pm tonight. Water arobics. I’m concerned about overheating my body, so I think this will really help. Can’t get too hot in water!! Just about everything overheats me at 240 lbs!!!

I think that’s about it. BTW, Ellen, my lean pocket was chalked full of yummy broccoli (sp?)!! I’m working on eating more veggies though, and fruits!! I’m never very good at this one!!

Ok, I went home for lunch, and I had bought a sandwich from the deli that looked good that you just warm up in the microwave. When I bought it, I checked the label for calories–deemed it reasonable, and bought it. I opened it and stuck it in the microwave. While it was warming, I was getting snacks and water ready for the afternoon at work. Sat down to record all my calories for lunch and snacks. Guess what. The damn sandwich was 2 SERVINGS!!! It wasn’t 350 calories.. it was 700!!!!! That was so bogus! I had already warmed it up. I decided maybe half a sandwich was more filling than I was thinking. Cut it in half.. ate both halves!! I did cut down my afternoon snack and picked out a Lean Pocket for supper. Should still be reasonable if I can stick to plan. Still think that was crappy though!!

On the plus side though, I think it is better right now for me to eat my calories early in the day instead of at supper. My tummy hasn’t been agreeable in the evening (and my mood even worse!). End up not eating because I don’t feel like it or I’m in a “mood”. I guess no serious harm done, but still!!

Well, I did it. I got a xmas bonus, so I decided to stop talking about it and do it. I went and got my family membership at the Y. Now I just need to realize that I absolutely cannot wait for hubby to have time in his schedule to go with me. If he can make it, wonderful. If not, fine. The first challenge was this morning already. I was up most of the night tossing and turning because there was an huge storm that bothered my dog all night. She finally settled down about 4am. My alarm went off at 5am. Ick! I hit snooze a couple of times and REALLY didn’t want to get up. Finally about 5:20, I asked hub if he was going to go. He said no. I just about rolled over and went back to sleep. Then I thought that if I let this be the trend, I will never consistently get it done. I got up and put my swimsuit on and did my laps. I only made it three laps, but that was one lap more than I felt like doing. I tried to push it a little. My asthma kicks in before I actually get tired in my muscles. The longer I do it, the better my stamina gets. I’m planning alternating swimming and working out in the fitness center. From what I’ve learned so far, as long as I’m careful not to get overheated, working out is ok while pregnant.

My mood swings were horrible yesterday! I really pity men. They can’t do anything right! Hub was in trouble all day long. Somehow it was even his fault that my chicken sandwich that I have been dying to try was WRONG! I ended up pouting over it! Today it seems really silly. Yesterday it wasn’t though. They put bacon on it (which I ordered w/out). It was all smushed into the bread and was no way I was going to get it all out. I ended up eating a couple of hub’s popcorn chickens and calling it good. Not much of a dinner, but I didn’t feel like figuring up the calories! (AND I was pouting!)

I think I figured out why dinner is so difficult to count calories. Its because when I cook, it is more difficult to figure up what the calories per serving is. Same if we eat dinner out. It is so frustrating. During the day it is pretty simple. Most of the things I eat have the nutritional guide, or something simple like fruit. I guess I’m lazy!! I’m working on it though. I’ll get it one of these days!!

Well, I gave up my skinny-in-a-can (slimfast) for the health of my pregnancy. I think my last was sometime last week. Ever since about Thursday (or Friday), I’ve been trying to establish a good calorie counting and food journal to replace it. I do really good until supper. I don’t understand why it is so difficult to finish the day out!! The weekend was just miserable. I don’t think I ate one veggie all weekend. Way more junk than anyone should eat. We had company all weekend, and I just was out of my groove and insecure with my new methods.

I’ve been staying the same on weight (approx), but I have been depressed that I can’t seem to get it down. So, what is the first thing I do? I stop exercising. Go figure! I got my xmas bonus today, so I’m thinking I’m going to go join the Y now. Get it done now before I get any more depressed!! I just want to continue a healthy lifestyle, so I can have a very healthy pregnancy w/out regrets!

Had my first OB visit today. It was just paperwork and insurance talk. Found out that my doc isn’t on my PPO. GGGRRRRRR! I HATE insurance!! Everything is getting to me the last couple of days. Think I might be moody….

Well, I start journaling my food this morning. I’m hoping that it will help the doc next week to see that I’m not eating junk! I’ve already put on a few pounds! I can’t believe it! I guess I knew that I usually gain in the 1st trimester, but I was hoping to limit it to very little! I guess I probably shouldn’t have had dinner out last night, but I was craving prime rib! I haven’t been hungry very much at all, so I don’t understand how I could have already gained! I must say that this is the very first time I’ve been anxious to go discuss my weight with a doctor! Usually I try to avoid that like the plague! Nothing like being pregnant and having a doctor scolding you like a child for gaining too much. Always a lecture and never a solution! Well, this time I’m seeking a solution!!

I’ve still been dragging my butt out of bed at 5am to walk. My son and daughter went with me this morning. It was pretty nice except my daughter is a ball of talking energy! I’m just not prepared for that at 5am!

I don’t think getting to bed early is going to be an issue for awhile! I can’t seem to make it until 9pm lately! Mornings are easier, but evenings kill me! Hubby isn’t appreciating this much because 8:30-10:30 is usually our time!

I really didn’t want to this morning. I hit snooze three times and about convinced myself that I was too tired to get up and walk. Then a little voice was in my head (you know they speak to you too!) telling me that if I didn’t get up and go walking, I was going to turn into a big fat whale. That I am not going to have energy again for a very long time, and that is a lame excuse. My voices are pretty brutal! So I got up, got dressed, and walked the dog over to the walking park, put in a mile, and walked back home.

I think it helped because I’m not nearly as tired today as I was yesterday. I did start taking some iron and B-complex today too, so who knows. All I know is I feel better. Need to check on that vitamin that Shan recommended too!!

I drank my last slimfast today. I had six left when I found out I was pregnant. Figured it wouldn’t hurt anything to finish them before going to calorie counting. I’m nervous about giving up my slimfast! I’ve been doing them since Aug 15th, so it will be an adjustment! It was nice because then I just had to worry about healthy snacks and dinner! I’m sure I can do it, but I need to be diligent about journaling!

I think the silly baby is already getting demanding! I’m thirsty all the time!! I drink 40 oz of water in the morning and another 40 oz in the afternoon. Not sure how much I drink after work, but it is somewhere between 20-40 oz. That is A LOT of water! I’m considering taking ANOTHER bottle of water to work with me in the am and pm. I’m not sure yet. I do know that I get thirsty a lot!! Besides extra water, I guess I’m not tolerating wheat crackers very well. I get heartburn so easily now!

Ok, only mildly irritable, but I’m not happy about mood swings! The worst is how very very tired I get for the 1st trimester!! Wow, I feel like I’m having the life sucked out of me! It is difficult for me to stay up until 9pm, so that the kids go to bed before I do! I didn’t walk on Monday, bad me, so I made a point of going yesterday. Long walk at 5am. It felt pretty good to get it done. Then this morning I could not talk myself into going out and doing it. I am going to try to get out there and walk this evening after work! I just haven’t had the energy!! I’ve been trying to wait until next Tues when I go to the doc office to start any supplements, but I’m afraid I’m not going to make it that long!! I think I’ll head to the healthfood store and get some iron and B-complex for sure. I just don’t know if I can stand feeling this droopy for long!

I need to get to the store and get some more snack type foods. I find myself needing small, frequent snacks, so I want to make sure I have healthy choices. On the plus side, I don’t think I much feel like large(ish) meals at all. I guess I’m going to end up on mini-meals instead of 3 main ones. Just a feeling.

Pregnant goals:
*Consult the doc about reasonable calorie intake
*Start journaling my food/exercise to make sure I stay within boundries
*Exercise daily
*Get to bed at a reasonable time

I figure if I can follow these, I can have the habits all set up for easy weight loss after the baby is born!!

I’m already getting nervous about being pregnant. I did really good yesterday on my eating except for a carmel apple! I gained 4 lbs from an apple?? Good God it is going to be a long 9 mos! My mom brought 2 home from vacation that are from this one store and they are to die for good. I ate one yesterday, but left the second one. I haven’t had real sweets in a very long time, and I could feel the sugar rush! I think I’m going to have to split the other one for the kids! I might have one slice..

We haven’t told my parents or our kids yet that I’m pregnant. My folks will probably be less than thrilled, so we are trying to keep a lid on it for now. I told my oldest son (13 yrs) about the expected baby. His face dropped for a minute, but then he kind of adjusted. I think he’ll be ok in the long run. Maybe some replacement issues, but I don’t think it will be too bad. He’s a wonderful kid and I wish I could make junior high easier for him.

I didn’t walk on Monday like I probably should have. I guess I kind of felt since I dropped off my Weight Loss team, that I wasn’t going to have to be accountable. Bad huh? I did go walking this morning though. Walked to my mother’s house and had a cup of coffee with her. I am trying to not drink coffee, but I couldn’t really refuse without telling her why I don’t want it!!

I go to the doc next week to “confirm” that I’m preggers, and I told the nurse that I am concerned about being overweight and pregnant. She said she would make a note of it so that we could discuss it at my appt. I’m hoping that they will have some guidelines on how many calories pregnant overweight women should be eating per day! Also what exercises are allowed. Everything I’ve found so far says that as long as you don’t overheat, you can do pretty much whatever. Maybe I’ll find out that I’m very wrong. Who knows! I found out that swimming is considered a very good pregnant exercise, so I’m going to definitely get that Y membership asap!!

Ok, I think that is enough rambling for today! You all take care!

Well, I reported that I went to the doctor a week ago, and he didn’t believe that I was preggers. Shows what doctors know! Actually, last week was too soon to really know. I did a test over the weekend, and sure enough. I am. It is still sinking in I suppose. We definitely weren’t looking to expand our family anymore. Matter of fact, the doc gave me birth control pills to regulate my cycles. I guess that sunk the deal! I told him that I was pretty sure I was pregnant, but I guess patients rarely know anything. He actually told me that he figured that the reason that my cycles were messed up was because I wasn’t ovulating. WRONG!

 Ok, I have been steadily losing weight since August 15th, so this was not what I had in mind for the next year!! I did hear that obese women shouldn’t gain any/much weight while pregnant. It is actually healthier NOT to. I’m going to discuss this with my doctor because I am 240 lbs right now, and I definitely don’t want to put on even 20 lbs! I know that a healthy baby is the most important thing, but I’m going to discuss it with the doctor so we can figure out what is best!

Although this is not a planned baby, I’m very excited. Hub and I both have our own children, but we don’t have any together. We both have to “share” the children with their other parents also. It is difficult knowing that you don’t have total control of your children’s lives and happiness. It will be nice to have one that we don’t have to share with our ex’s.

The advantages that this has happened now instead of before I started losing weight:

I’ve already given up my Diet Coke. I don’t think it is healthy to be consuming caffeine or artifical sweetner while pregant. I’ve already given it up in the persuit of losing weight. I have very little of either, so giving up the remainder (an occassional cup of coffee) won’t be difficult.

I’m in better shape now than I was 3 months ago. I’ve been walking daily, and I plan on getting my Y membership early and start swimming in the morning. I’m really going to focus on getting into shape before the baby gets here.

 I already eat very healthy foods. I don’t eat any junk calories or fried foods, so I’m already on my way to making a healthy baby. The only thing I’ll have to change is switching to calorie counting instead of slimfast. Slimfast is probably not a healthy baby choice! It sure is easy for a diet plan though. Only have to behave for one meal. That is ok, I’m perfectly capable of calorie counting!

I think that’s about it. I’m excited but scared too. I haven’t had a baby in many many years. Hope it is like riding a bike!