Beebee

Well, I stayed true to form. I had yet another bad weekend plan wise. Hubby said he has been struggling to stay in control of his eating too. We both said we will buckle down this week and get back on track. I guess we feed off each others moods more than I realized. I just didn’t care this weekend and I’m not sure why. We spent a lot of time driving this weekend. My ex lost his vehicle, so we took kids to him and back again. We spent about 13 hours on the road total. I’m not too far along on my pregnancy yet, but this was definitely enough to throw my weekend into a tailspin. I was stiff and tired all weekend. To make it worse, hubby had to work quite a bit this weekend too (while trying to get sick).

My son is in serious depression over his father right now. I’m getting concerned about him. His dad doesn’t know when he will be back to see the kids since he has no car right now. He is talking about moving to Nebraska which would make it 6 hrs from his kids. We all know that this will seriously limit visitations. My younger son is taking it the worst. I told him that his dad is going to have to work things out for himself, but I know that seeing his kids is very important to him and he will work it out. I also told him to call his dad more if he is missing him. Other than that, I’m kind of at a loss. He is upset that we ever got divorced and I can’t even begin to explain to him all the reasons that us being married was seriously not good.

I guess the advantage to being pregnant is that even though I ate some things over the weekend that I shouldn’t, I couldn’t eat much!! I have a seriously limited appetite and my stomach gets too queazy to eat much!! I am going to focus this week on healthy choices for me and baby and cut the crap back out of my life! We don’t need it! I feel like a split personality always talking about we and us!! I don’t need to be perfect, just constantly moving forward and improving! I don’t feel I have been doing that lately like I should be!